So I have to AW!

I have hit the 25 pound loss mark. I have been working my butt off, going to the gym, even when I didn't want to. Skipping desserts, eating the right things, and it is working!!! I really am so very proud. It is not easy to eat right when everyone else in your home eats everything you used to love. There isn't a dinner that doesn't include a side dish I am not to eat. My will power has just been amazing. I just want soo bad to be healthy and to have babies, and I think it just might happen.

I am also 9 DPO, and probably will test at 12 DPO. That might be too early but I have an OB weight check appointment, and I am unsure about what to do. Will they test me if I ask?? I am just not sure, so I have a $Tree test hid away for just such an occasion. Our timing was really great and I just cannot wait to know for sure if we were successful.

I just wanted to AW here, I am sure the nestie girls are getting sick of my incessant postings.....LOL

3 DPO!!!

I thought it wasn't going to happen, but OMG I am finally seeing for sure definite crosshairs on my chart. Of course, immediately I have all sorts of phantom symptoms, but really who knows what may happen. Our timing was decent...even got a high score on the timing indicator, and if I were to conceive I would be due 4-11-09. Just what we need in my family, another April birthday.....my family already has 6 in April and DH....there are I think two or three. I guess I will just have to wait it out. I go in a little over a week back to the doctor for a check-in...and wouldn't she be surprised if I came in with a BFP! I just keep thinking in my head "Oh please let me see a BFP!!"

I hate Laundry.

I mean I really hate it....it does not help that I have to precisely time the moment my MIL finishes using the washer and dryer, as to not interfere with her laundry, but random FIL underwear always, and I mean always end up in my hamper....why oh why must I do laundry. And it seems that no matter how often I do laundry there is still a shload of it the next time around. In reality laundry is not such a horrible chore, but if there is anyone in this world that actually likes doing laundry...well you can come and visit and do mine as long as you'd like!

Contemplating this Life.

As I sit and watch my new DVD of "Sword in the Stone" I started to contemplate what my life would be like if I were not a newlywed....and moreover, what it would be like if I had not met Josh in the first place. Four years ago I was suffering a slight depression, a general feeling of disdain for the direction in which my life was going. Oh I was happy enough, missed my dad every day since he passed in 2001, but I was poor, lonely, and trying to find out who I was. I wasn't looking for a relationship, I was really pretty content to think that I would never date anyone, always be alone, watch my sisters get married and have children....Spend every summer watching Gidget and Anne of Green Gables, like every other summer since I had turned 16. Funny how things happen I guess, but when I least expect it, Bam! there he was, the love of my life...So what would be going on if I had not met him and got married....I probably wouldn't be busting my ass to lose weight, try to get healthy so that I can get pregnant, I would probably be wasting my time, working in a job that I hated (quit that job months ago, if only I had been able to see into the future). Wouldn't be getting ready to move to Michigan and start my life...

I would have to say that I am so happy about how my life has turned out thus far. I have a man in my life that loves and cares for me, who would do anything for me, and wants to protect me. He has opened my life to so many exciting possibilities, and I am grateful for this life.

I do want to AW, I weighed myself today, and since I began working out and living a low carb lifestyle, I have lost 21 pounds and 14 inches from my body. It has been 6 weeks and I am proud of that accomplishment.

I suppose that you never know what will happen in your life, but the best you can do is hold on and prepare for that exciting ride.

My First Blog

Well Ladies and Gentlemen, this is my first blog. I cannot promise anything poignant or profound, but I hope to be able to vent, muse, wonder, and giggle my way through the next point in my life. Being newly married seems like it would be exciting and wonderful, but I feel in a rut. Waiting impatiently for things to change. When will I get the memo that I am married now and my real life can begin? Sometimes I wonder, will it ever feel different than now? Don't get me wrong, I have a blessed existence, but I cannot help but wonder, when will the other shoe drop?